Let me preface this post by saying that I should be writing a sermon right now... I'm not procrastinating, really; but I would prefer to have my sermon done by Thursday afternoon. However, I have been wanting to blog all week and simply not had time to do so.
Have you ever felt so overwhelmed by an outpouring of blessings in your life that you lash out and start fights with your spouse? Well, I have! All this week, in fact. Allow me to elaborate...
With the exception of losing Jared's dad in mid-September, the last four-and-a-half months have been overflowing with awesomeness (channeling Barney from
How I Met Your Mother). We got to end our summer of insanity with lots of vacation time with family and friends. We started August with the knowledge that we were pregnant, though we wouldn't go public until October. We learned that we would get to look for and buy our very first home. We received confirmation that I would be ordained as a transitional deacon in the Episcopal Church. And this month, we are actually in the process of buying the house; we will travel to Cuba for Thanksgiving. Next month, we will move into the new house; I will be ordained; and we will travel to Dallas for Christmas fun with some of my family!
When it rains, it pours! My cup runneth over! (Not to mention my baby bump runneth over my elastic waistband, too!) And the like.
Even though none of these things are bad things to be experiencing and dealing with, they are still overwhelming. Jared and I have been very snippy and short-tempered with each other lately. We really don't like having these times; but I think we are snippy and short because we can be. Does this make sense to anyone else? Your spouse, hopefully, becomes the person that you can bear all to, but who will still love you even after you've borne it all. So that's what this season of transition and change feels like for me. We are short-tempered and super high strung right now, but we know that we are partners through all of the crazy.
Even though there is stress involved in all of these transitions, I am incredibly excited to have all of these experiences. We will own our first home! We will finally get to put together a nursery for Spare! I will have hands laid upon my head and be made a deacon in the church! And, eventually, we will hold our sweet baby in our arms and our lives will REALLY change.
There is so much to be grateful for in all of these changes.
